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[white_widow]

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[decohere]

being so insistently difficult over nothing, all the time.

[white_widow]

Well, that would be reliant on you proving that I am being insistently difficult over nothing, all the time.

[decohere]

and you don't see how placing that burden upon me to be responsible for monitoring your behavioral patterns is a contributor to my stress levels?

[white_widow]

Ava.
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I am not trying to place that burden on you. I simply do not currently agree that I am insistently difficult over nothing all the time. If that is something you wish me to change about myself, unfortunately, you are going to have to provide a lot more information.

[decohere]

alright, so then am i to believe your being difficult is unintentional and you have not observed this tendency in your interactions, or that you're disagreeing with the 'over nothing' portion?

[white_widow]

I am disagreeing with the over nothing portion, yes.

And I do not think it is all of the time, but I can accept it might be all of the time from your perspective.

[decohere]

yes, i am speaking from my own perspective. glad to see you save it mostly for me.

[white_widow]

I have no idea if it is mostly for you or not, you still have not provided any examples.

[decohere]

right now, for starters.

[white_widow]

дай мне силы. I am trying to meet you halfway here, about what it is about me that bothers you so much

but if it is seeking clarification, there is nothing I can do about that, I am afraid. And certainly not while it is still like pulling teeth to get a single clear answer from you about anything.

[decohere]

it's like you're always playing some sort of guessing game where you say one thing but maybe are implying another and i can't track what the conversation is actually meant to be about and no matter how i answer it seems to be the wrong one.

so how are my answers not clear?

[white_widow]

Okay. I had not realized that I was coming across that way or making you feel like that. I apologize, I will try and adjust.

Well. You often seem noncommittal or seem to be giving noncommittal answers, but, given what you just said, I can see how that is a problem I may have caused or at least contributed to.

[decohere]

it's not all on you. i am not exactly the most practiced in facilitating friendly conversation with mutual understanding as a goal.

and sometimes i just don't know.

[white_widow]

Well. At least now we have this as evidence we are capable of it, despite ourselves.

That is fair. I am sorry for any times I reacted in frustration to that. I should - be better than that.

[decohere]

it's just hard knowing what's meant in good faith, when i'm being set up, and what answers will be used against me. so yes, maybe sometimes i make things more difficult than need be.

we're both who we are, for reasons that neither of us were responsible for. apologies aren't necessary.

[white_widow]

I understand.

That is true. But I am responsible for my actions now, so I am not going to rescind the apology.

[decohere]

fine, then i'll accept it. if you accept my own in return.

[white_widow]

Alright, deal.

So how difficult was I just then? Scale of one to ten.

[decohere]

3. i can recognize the effort.

[white_widow]

Hm. Okay.

Alright, I'm coming back. Do not tell Alexei that I am going to be making a bunch of Russian food.

[decohere]

good.
if i were inclined to tell him anything at all, it would not be something that encouraged him to invite himself.

[white_widow]

What would it be, if you were so inclined?

[decohere]

please bathe.

[white_widow]

That is a good choice. More optimistic than I would have expected from you, but good.

[decohere]

he had crumbs all stuck in his beard the other day... it was difficult speaking with him. i had to keep looking away.