[Look, he's gonna have heart eyes right now- in a totally no hetero way.]
You're amazing. And yeah.... we've had a lot worse problems, but I'm trying not to think of it that way. I don't want to drag all of that into this. I just want- a normal thing. That's ok too, right?
Of course that's okay. You're right. It's better not to drag all of that in. I really just meant that I'm glad to help work out a mental tangle like this, rather than... other things. It's nice.
[She opens her mouth, and then closes it again, and sighs.] I want to say that I am okay, and I do not think it would be a lie, but not the whole story. There's, you know, the usual stuff. And then there's the occasional crushing fear that whenever this ends, if this ends, whatever strings we have formed will not actually be strong enough to keep us together. But mostly I am doing alright.
[ He nods, because he gets it. That same fear rattles around in his head every day, but- ]
We've been through a lot together. Not just... professionally, but personally. I think we've all tried really damn hard. Hard enough to know we don't wanna give up on any of this. On each other.
And... when I think about that fear- because believe me, I have it too, especially when I think about what Sam and I used to have- I realize how different it is. How important. I can't speak for the rest of our team, but I know how it is for me, and I'm almost certain they feel the same.
[She would never have been able to say it, if she didn't know he would get it. Getting some sort of pacifying, forced positivity reassurance would be worse, in certain ways, but she could count on Bucky not to try something like that.
And those facts combined meant that the reassurance he did offer now, she believed. His almost certain was quite a statement.]
[ Bucky knows that pacifying is the worst thing someone can hear- and he's never been one for forced anything, let alone positivity. He really means what he says here. ]
It does, yeah. It was rough at first, it really was- but you really think that even without the Avengers name hanging over our head, any of us would just walk outta here?
No. No, I don't think any of us would just walk out of here, I don't - well, Alexei is attached to the name, but not more than the team. I don't think the rest of us are really that attached to it.
But. [She struggles for a minute, with how to phrase this.] If someone tried to divide us and not just take away the name, if something horrible enough happened during that - I don't know. It is just hard to believe we could really get to keep this even as long as we have. It's better than we started this, but it just lingers, that fear.
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I'm glad to be able to help. And I'm glad, you know - stressful and heavy as it is, we have had worse problems, yes?
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[Look, he's gonna have heart eyes right now- in a totally no hetero way.]
You're amazing. And yeah.... we've had a lot worse problems, but I'm trying not to think of it that way. I don't want to drag all of that into this. I just want- a normal thing. That's ok too, right?
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Thank you. I really appreciate you helping me out with this stuff.
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You doing alright?
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[She opens her mouth, and then closes it again, and sighs.] I want to say that I am okay, and I do not think it would be a lie, but not the whole story. There's, you know, the usual stuff. And then there's the occasional crushing fear that whenever this ends, if this ends, whatever strings we have formed will not actually be strong enough to keep us together. But mostly I am doing alright.
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We've been through a lot together. Not just... professionally, but personally. I think we've all tried really damn hard. Hard enough to know we don't wanna give up on any of this. On each other.
And... when I think about that fear- because believe me, I have it too, especially when I think about what Sam and I used to have- I realize how different it is. How important. I can't speak for the rest of our team, but I know how it is for me, and I'm almost certain they feel the same.
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And those facts combined meant that the reassurance he did offer now, she believed. His almost certain was quite a statement.]
Really? It feels different to you?
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It does, yeah. It was rough at first, it really was- but you really think that even without the Avengers name hanging over our head, any of us would just walk outta here?
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But. [She struggles for a minute, with how to phrase this.] If someone tried to divide us and not just take away the name, if something horrible enough happened during that - I don't know. It is just hard to believe we could really get to keep this even as long as we have. It's better than we started this, but it just lingers, that fear.