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[white_widow]

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[makeitworse]

I mean it's fine if you were. You were still nicer to me than...

It was nice.

And like, I get it. When you're a super-spy you probably do that stuff without even thinking about it sometimes. Empathy's not the worst thing to have, you know?

[white_widow]

You aren't wrong about that, sometimes I do default to that, and sometimes I am not sure if it is more me or more the Widow having a conversation. That was me, though.

[makeitworse]

Does it feel like another person? The Widow, I mean.

[white_widow]

Yes and no. It's sort of like a Venn diagram. A messy one.

[makeitworse]

There's you. And then there's the you you had to learn how to be to stay safe.

I get it.

[white_widow]

...
Yes. I don't know if I have ever heard it put so succinctly and still accurately.

Is that how it feels for you too?

[makeitworse]

Kinda. I mean it's all me but. It's like I don't know how to stop it.

It's just...me. Messy, like you said.

[white_widow]

I really, really underestimated how messy identity was, before I had the opportunity to really have one.

I think... it's very difficult to figure out where to put the things we do that we don't know how to stop. I thought, when I came out of the mind control, that calling all my own shots might be difficult, but at least I would know that I was the one making the calls, and then it turned out that knowing that for sure was a much rarer experience than I expected.

[makeitworse]

...that's what we have friends for, right?

To help us figure it out as we go.

[white_widow]

Yes. We, we do, you're right. Our bunch might be crazy, but I think they are well suited for the task.